Hi
This is a website about mental wellbeing,
for people under medication need the
short version.
p.s. none of the links work yet
These ideas are records from visiting people,
walking around, talking to people and discussing
with strangers, and exchanging information
in writing, or in speech.
Chapter 1
Benzene
It comes from fuels.
It is in our bodies, in nature, in the drinking
water, because we ingest it. It is not synthesised
(made) nor broken down (metabolised) in the body.
It is not treated in water treatment process.
Water tastes better if filtered and boiled, but
mainly boiled.
It is accumulating in the water system
and nature at a human-driven rate and
therefore ourselves ever since we have
been using oil and fuels.
It's also in tar, which is in tarmac. Tar
can be absorbed on the skin as well as
breathing in. But workers working with
tar even on a daily basis do not have
protection for it.
The roads wear away and the tar gets washed
into the drainage and river system.
Benzene is an electron cloud
Benzene has electrons in a cloud above and below
a hexagon of Carbon. It is soluble in organic
environments and is therefore
similar to an organic liquid metal
mercury poisoning
lithium - lithium is a metal
Metals
Metals and aerials.
Metals concentrate signals. But the balance
between signal sources, number, and power,
and metals has not been addressed in the
last 10 years.
We used to send entire movies over wires
and cables.
Now, we send the same movie through the air,
into/through our heads/bodies, in all directions.
And a lot of us do this.
We have wifi, 4g, 5g, bluetooth, dect/wireless
home phones, smart watches.
Is it possible to cook something very slowly?
Do you find marks on your skin about wrist height?
The aerials are now overloaded. Now
we live in an electric field. Good news
it is easy to disturb the electric field
through contact.
To disturb the electric field, blow on it or
touch it.
I was sitting on a park bench with a gentleman
who happened to be an engineer. He showed me by
reach his arm up high and bringing the hand down
slowly and seeing how the field changes
when you establish and change a new aerial.
We were next to a 5g cell tower at the time
(and a large pirate ship) but he also explained
that signals can come down from the sky many
times more powerful than the cell tower, like
an exploding star.
Radio signals
In the last 10 years we have gone from maybe
10% to 20% of population having smart phones,
bluetooth watches, mice, keyboards, cars, all
sources of electromagnetic-radiation.
Situation - On the tube - how much radiation?
Imagine you are a ticket attendant.
At the underground station, every minute,
one hundred people exit the train and
approach the ticket barriers, which are made of
metal. As a ticket attendant. How much
radiation do you receive per minute?
On the platform, teenagers and office workers
line up waiting for the next train. Plot
the sources and interference pattern
on the platform in your mind.
Always on
When you put your earphones on
they connect instantly, when you get
home you connect to your wifi
automatically, when you pair
devices you see people's devices
passing by.
So the devices are always on, always scanning and
identifying other devices to see if they should
connect.
The range of the devices is probably ten metres for a strong
connection enough to transmit information, twenty for an
ordinary connection.
Yes they go through walls, glass, most normal construction
materials.
They don't go through plastic as well, because
they are made of the same atoms and molecules
as the human body, but in polymer chains.
Situation - Cinema
You are at the cinema. The film, doesn't matter
how long it is, is about to end. Your back or other
bones ache. Outside in the foyer are a cinema load of
new people waiting for the next movie, on their phones,
earphones etc.
How much radiation are you receiving
from the reverse side?
Next to the road
I live on a not quiet, not busy road.
How many mobiles, earphones, watches,
cars pass by per second on a road next
to your workplace, building site, home?
Count for ten seconds.
When you are waiting for the bus, what
route is the radiation taking from the
cell tower to your hand/chest/stomach/wrist?
Does it go through someone's head, home?
Does it go through yours?
Stand next to an e.g. mobile phone mast or
wifi router and watch a video. Rotate
the phone between you and your body.
Helicopter and headaches
You get a headache. You then hear a helicopter.
Which caused which?
Electrons and metals inside the body
Potassium Bromide and
pets
According to wikipedia, and a doctor, Potassium Bromide
was discontinued for use in humans, 50 years ago.
It remains in use and for sale online for pets.
Animals not behaving
seasonally
The animals are out of sync. Some larvae I have not seen
before. The animals are not sleeping at night.
An insect landed my neck. Every time a car went
past, it hurt, a lot. It was being heated up.
I had no idea what it was, I asked a delivery
driver what it was.
Animals are being trapped in radiation signals.
Some animals, e.g. dogs run towards abnormal
signals. If they are surrounded by aerials, they
become trapped.
Benzene and the
evaporation rate of water
Does it rain more or less than it did when you
were younger?
Benzene in medicines
If you are on medication, look on wikipedia
for its chemical formula. Does it contain benzene
rings? Why does it contain benzene rings?
You may start with e.g. benzo-diazepines but
you will find non-mental health drugs also
contain benzene. I believe it was isolated from
herbal remedies and concentrated when it should
have been neither isolated nor strengthened past
nature.
Looking older, fatter,
being less coordinated than I should be for my age
Cholesterol and benzene rings
Cholesterol contains benzene rings.
Testing for cholesterol, or medicines? Is
this a self-sustaining reaction?
Brain and electrical signals
Brain and nervous system uses small electrical signals to work
They are overwhelmed by the amount of wifi and
electron-sensitive substances inside and outside our body.
Energy Transformation
Energy can be transformed into different forms,
thermal, electromagnetic radation, sound.
UV, electrical, motion, potential, form of energy
can be smooth or jagged or erratic.
Memory Loss
The brain cannot work in intended way
Confusion
The brain cannot work in intended way, regardless of direction
Balance
The nervous system is overridden
Review
Metals +
Benzene in our bodies +
Wifi/Bluetooth/4g * X = ???
Has anyone addressed this question specifically?
The fact is, our security systems - iron bars, railings, are from the 30s-40s or even earlier, while cameras and lights and intercoms are from the 80s.
The railings are designed for a different wavelength and availability of receiving radio devices (AM, FM), not phones and bluetooth devices on a large majority of people.
Chapter 2 - Living with medication
It can be hard living with medication.
Bad things
The universe sends me bad things when I
don't take my medication.
Anti - Feedback
The universe seems to have the opposite effect when I try
to fix things.
(Bouncing off the sides)
(Brownian motion)
Bloating
I am much bigger than since I started
taking medication
Adult colic - air bubbles form when you are microwaved.
You get big. You pass wind.
Perhaps related, celiac "disease".
Pain
It hurts when I do certain things. Chronologically.
Sleep/Insomnia
I sleep during the day or am awake at night
Bad things
Bad things happen to people around me, people
don't respond to me
Anxious
I am much more anxious since I
started taking medicine
Move your body
When you are in trouble, pain, anxiety, just MOVE.
Change the situation. Is the stimulus from within
or external? If it is external, change the situation.
Warm up and cool down exercises are perfect for
this. Stretching your arms in a circular motion.
If you can, identify the aerials in your home.
Shield them with plastic bags/boxes/bottles etc.
If something is stinging your eyes, you may
mask it with sellotape or masking tape.
Go for walks
Go for walks - exercise, fresh air, seeing
other people. Don't get upset by anti social
behaviour. Remain calm and if there is something
to learn from the experience take it with you.
Phone trap
Being trapped by your phone(s)
and how to take a break
Put the phone in a plastic box.
Ideally, don't use it if it bothers you.
Stretch.
Switch off background apps.
Car trap
Being trapped in your car - your
car is a giant aerial, take regular breaks
Think deliveries and shuttles not
work from car.
Stretch your legs, get fresh air, decompress
Be careful of the bends
Chapter 3
Unhealthy Thoughts and your own thoughts
Do your current thoughts and habits
match your beliefs and upbringing?
How much are you driving your thoughts?
Received information
When you have a piece of knowledge,
is it a piece of received information
or from experience?
We start off life with a lot of received
information, some of it really useful
some of it a time delayed joke from
our grandparents or similar.
As we go through life, experience
unlocks received information which
unlocks experience received information.
ID
Beware fake IDs or IDs followed by
a completely unrelated piece of information
Thoughts
Identifying your thoughts.
Naming your ghosts.
"They are lying, they are no good"
This is a common, flawed, thought pattern. Not
natural in ourselves.
"We are better than them"
You can build up a list over time. Common male
thoughts are also pretending to be someone else
or blaming someone else. Or thinking about
nice to haves and forgetting about the priorities.
Music
Listening to music. Are you
responding in the expected way?
Swiping
Clear the air.
Locating your aerials
Locate anything that could potentially behave
as an source/retransmitter aerial, even aluminium.
See how the signal moves between them as you swipe.
Unexpected aerials:
Trees
Train lines
Hair clips
Watches
Spectacles (but as a transmitter)
Elements in clothes
Jewellery (damaged or dirty)
Build up of emissions on glass and
plant pots
Mirrors
Cupboard handles
Like lightning, the signal just hops on
to the most convenient route, even if
it has to go around or up and down.
Chapter 3 Part 1
A penny for your wayward demons
Lying
Lying is lying. Twisting the truth is twisting
the truth. It is not the correct or
intended development of language.
Why intend to be rude or hurt people? Either the
person can take it so you didn't have to be rude
or the person can't and you ruined their day.
It can't be about lying all the time, who
wants to live in a world where you can't believe
a single word anyone says?
Sarcasm
A common language thing that is rarely but very
unfortunately confused with lying.
understatement
A common misinterpretation that leads to lying is
the understatement. Lying is not funny, nor polite.
Reflexive
Reflexive verbs. Things that I do.
Solidarity
You do something in response to what someone has said.
It is funny/positive and harms no-one. Finished.
Arranging facts
Are you arranging facts to fit your view
or goals, vs arranging the facts to make
sense.
Which is your natural mode of thinking?
Self imprisonment
6 degrees of freedom - connect anyone to anyone in N steps.
Same goes with concepts of thoughts.
So you can imagine anything to entrap yourself.
Diversion - Cockney rhyming slang
Long time have I not heard even a Cockney accent.
But, do pork pies really = lies? Does it make sense?
Trouble and strife = ?
Apples and pears = ?
Chapter 3, Part 3
Unhealthy thoughts
A list of unhealthy thoughts and emotions
Suspicion
Do you fall into cycles of suspecting people
of crimes or harming you or someone else
or lying.
Is this natural? (no)
Suffer
Do you enjoy seeing other people suffer.
Is this natural? (no)
Blaming others
Do you like to blame others for your
predicament? And let life stop there?
Is this a good way to be? (no)
Indignation
Are you upset by inequality, that others
have more than you have, but don't
measure up to you and your beliefs?
Is this natural? (no)
Ego Boost
Do you find yourself getting an ego/pride
boost? I guess a little pride is alright.
Impersonation
Do you find thoughts coming from or about
people, that don't match with your experience
of that person or institution?
Distraction
Do you find your thoughts going in directions
that ultimately are not relevant? A little
imagination is not bad, but not at the expense
of creating your own, personal memories
that originate and are saved in your own
brain.
Chapter 3 Part 2
Escaping wayward demons
using old languages and dialects
Do you think differently in a different language?
Stress/anger
Do you feel stress/anger? Is it from inside?
Or is it Stress/anger from the
environment? Is it different to actual emotions
Lethargy - do you think it doesn't need to be done? That it's all covered?
Way too many external thoughts can prevent you making
your own memories properly.
Chapter 5
Suppressing the population, by suppressing information sharing
How to prevent the story escaping into the open.
Suppression - everybody knows
Impersonation
Play back a recording then speak the message after
Capitalism/Communism/Investing
Fair Play
- let someone else take the glory
Note: - difference between actually thinking someone else
(known) must take the challenge vs letting "whoever" (unknown)
take the challenge
Threats
Karma or retribution on others, intimidation, harassment
Overguidance
A few seconds of guidance vs >1 minute a day
Intimidation
- using phantom, real or fake officials to harass
or intimidate you - this requires a knowledge of
legislation or the law but mainly walking away,
or leaving the situation and staying outside. If
it is an officer of the law, ask
if you are under arrest. If not, ask if you are free
to go. Do not engage in conversation or friendly
banter, do not respond, simply remain calm, exhale
as much as you can, and leave. Anyone can make a
call to any service without identity verification.
Possessiveness.
Someone else has *your* idea. Someone else
as *your* item.
Mine, yours.
Isolation
Isolating you from friends, by intercepting
communications. Verify
in person, speech, writing. People never know
anywhere near as much as you think, and in
fact, it's actually not possible for two points
in space and time to share the same information
without being in the same place.
Confidence/hubris
Using confidence, and complacency to suppress
activity. No, it's not done,
no, that somebody else is waiting for you
to do it instead, and in fact, in reality,
probably has NO IDEA about it at all.
Publicity does not equal done
Your information is publicised in some way.
Other people have no idea what the
information is really about and make
something up. You think they got the information
because they know what you knew. They don't. The
information was not published to the public
authentically, or in the way you intended, if you
intended it
Deserving
Taking more than your fair share. Nobody
really wants more than their fair
share, typically, and if someone does actually
want more than their fair share, we're typically
happy to oblige. So it's just being used to control
you.
Age related nonsense
This person is X years of age hence I cannot be
nice to them.
This person is X years of age so I cannot let
them be nice to me.
undersharing
not talking about what happened or has
happened. "thanks for sharing."
In trouble
Getting someone in trouble? Another way to
look at it is, they are in trouble already,
and you need to talk about it to help.
Unhealthy (External) Thoughts
Greed
Someone else is being greedy
Someone else is has
done such and such and is a criminal
Cruelty
Enjoying Cruelty
Control
Enjoying Control of others
Gain
financial or reputational gain
Pride
National, Religious, cultural, personal, family pride
Getting ahead
Getting ahead at work, life or play
Winning
Playing to win when you're over 45
Overtaking
Don't like being overtaken by others
Everyone should be like me
God forbid.
X should be like me
Nope.
Thought disorder, an example
Tell people what to do
1) Tell people what to do - impolite
2) Tell people not what to do - manipulative
3) Tell people what to do by saying you will do it = madness
4) Tell people what to do by saying you did do it = death*
5) "You stabbed his hand with a pen." = bye bye.
This is the uncontactable node/presence. Because
most people use their intuition, a sense of continuity,
kindness, they are able to go through the options and
come up with the rational thing to do.
If this process is not working properly in someone,
usually because they were mis-instructed by someone
else, they become cut off from the rest of the world.
*why death? because if you have someone else telling
you your future, you may as well be a spirit watching
your body
It's just not a particularly creative, fun place to be
as far as language goes. Recommend exploring alternatives.
You could share actual, valid information. "Yesterday I
saw an beetle come up to a patch on the pavement and
walk backwards in reverse from it".
You could relax and say nothing as much as possible
and listen for a while. This allows the brain to
relax from over stimulation.
You could think of how to improve someone's day.
You could think in drawing and make sketches.
You could write. Being in the open reduces waywards options.
Hangry
Dont be hangry. Eat something.
Why do esp. women get thin?
Changing phone trapped people
People in trouble and cages. Difficult.
Reaching up. Switching off surrounding signals.
Surrounding person.
Talking to them.
Patience, diligence, total review, advice, help.
Self sustaining reaction
- ever brought two phones calling each
other together? Imagine you have two
spirits locked in a negative feedback cycle. They
drag each other down, each powering the other. Without
intending to.
It's alive! Oy!
Remain positive
Remaining positive, remaining honest, not
being diverted from your
goal.
Causes of thoughts
Deceit
Conceit
Ego and self esteem
Zealousness
Pride
Thought experiment - The Angry Gods of Athens
Angry Zeus - lightning bolts
Sneaky Ares - war -> says let's not fight, or
the "war is won", while spreading war
Hercules - 12 tasks - does a bunch of stuff you
didn't ask for or want but you have to pay
them anyway
Mischevious Mercury - messenger who doesn't always
tell you exactly what was said
Poseidon - sticks his trident in the water and causes storms
Apollo - drives his chariot and the sun ever closer
War, Pestilence, Plague?
Tea
Myself, I enjoy drinking tea just for the enjoyment of it.
However, tea drinking can be made into the justification
for a war.
Boston Tea Party - no ta to tea from England.
Or possibly, the sea is a great place to make tea.
(Also tarring (benzene rings) and feathering)
Dim Sum - small amounts are plenty.
Japanese Tea ceremony - try drinking the tea from
their point of view
Chai - milk and sugar, everything except actual tea
Sugar and tea -
Forgiveness
lean towards forgiveness over suspicion.
but there are lost causes which require
lengthy education, maybe they got a bad
copy of a book or got stuck in a bad
cycle for decades.
Psychological conditions: At a guess, the main
medical conditions explained
Schizophrenia
Isolation and separation from friends
Psychosis
- you have a controlling family member or in-law or
unwound neighbour or coworker or spited friend. Probably
not a sis, but related.
Paranoia
- you are annoyed by
non-official individuals who annoy you
because they they think they've been told to,
or because of the way you look or
behave triggers something in them
Narcissm
- you use drugs, language to control people,
or monitor people
Depression
- you are suppressed by society because
they want you to have done something
in your life differently, or you do more happy
things than you deserve
Anxiety
- you aren't helping society in
the way someone has decided you should
Bipolar
- you are doing work that in the eyes of the traditionalist
belongs to another gender
Alzheimers
- you are drinking more
alcohol than someone thinks you deserve
Cancer
- you are trying hard and making
other people look bad in comparison
Asthma
You are antidestablishmentarianist
High blood pressure
- you get mad easily - little to do with
the blood pressure itself
Insulin
Diabetes
Malaria
Sickle Cell
These are of course just justifications. The
standard of proof is suspicion.
It's difficult to imagine any person at 17 years of
age knowing this, and going through 10 years of
training, knowing that this is the profession.
But what could you do if that was the case?
Heart disease
If benzene is in the blood. And the heart contains a lot
of blood. Could you induce arrhythmia in the heart?
Mental Health
- metal health
Detective Work: Time and Network analysis
Can you determine when your current changes started happening,
by going through your life in time, and reviewing when
you met people or started working somewhere? Does the network
centre around a specific person(s)?
This is where you may find that some stretches of
your life are more easily memorable than others. Typically
more than 10 years ago are memorable, less than 10/15
are harder to remember.
Unhealthy (internal) thoughts
There are plenty of people that have unhealthy
thoughts originating from within.
The key is to know which way is up.
As soon as you turn back, you will see the way home.
The medicine not working but you are asleep for 60% of the day? The next one to try is this, it will be 80% of the day!
"They are lying, they are no good"
Mental health is metal health
You don't know you have memory loss until someone asks you.
Women and unexpected increased vulnerability
Why do women seem to be more susceptible?
It could be biology: hair length or similar.
It could be habits: spending much more time on the phone.
Standard of proof
So the standard of proof for these imaginary angels
to start punishing you is quite low in practice.
Suspicion is enough.
It's probably because the first case is very difficult
for you, but after the fifth or tenth the subjects
are all pretty much the same, it is human nature.
Don't get caught
This is the number one rule of that fight club.
Don't get caught. So anything that leaves evidence
is very usually out of the picture.
Bees dying
Why are the bees dying? Did it get hot and then rain?
Bees can't get wet? I don't think so, they have continued
to die since then.
The bees are bigger than they ought to be and they
are overheating.
A ladybird landed on the front of my neck, and same thing,
it burns when a car goes past.
- Company windups
I have seen a company that has enough assets to pay off
their liabilities file for liquidation.
What happens when a company goes into administration is
that another company known as an insolvency practitioner
is brought in to sell the assets, settle debts and taxes
and so on. They receive a fee or will recover it from the
assets
Think of an online market place seller with a shop. You
hand the shop over to someone else to handle.
There's a lot you can do with a company in your hands.
Generally, the not getting caught rule does rule out
many possibilities, but addresses, offices, assets are all
free game.
In the above example, the assets were dealt with but the
amount did not reach the level required to pay off the debts.
In the imaginary world of solo law enforcement, the company
owners are put under suspicion and are silently treated as
morally bankrupt. Bad things started happening to them,
their health deteriorated, they were unable to sell their
house for a reasonable price, sudden suitors appeared in the
family. I am not saying this is related but was co-incident.
- House auctions
So on the theme of death, what happens to someone in a hospice
or care home? If they can be isolated, and their finances
obstructed, their assets will return to the crown and be sold
off at auction by some agent or executor.
So is the crown/government the driving force? Unlikely. Are
they a ripe target for infiltration by a few agents?
So a care home provides a steady source of income and employment
and the scope to access the properties and assets of a vulnerable
old person, who can be made to go into care by a combination
of accidents, falls, ill health (from a routine blood test, that
tests for benzene), and so on. A mortgage may be withdrawn, a
loan recalled.
Perhaps a partner died and the remaining partner felt a sudden
urge to join them.
What visibility is there on the old persons's liquidation?
A societal blind spot on death, human and corporate.
- Apartment blocks
London and probably the rest of the UK has been hit with
apartment blocks. Why apartment blocks? Why are they in
the middle of nowhere, more expensive than most can afford,
and unpopulated?
If I were a surveillance/security company, I would probably
see the benefits of scale. One security room could cover
a large number of the block.
Apartment blocks aren't new. Grenfell told us that, a
densely populated, poorly internally and externally
insulated block of apartments could catch fire very
easily and quickly.
But new apartment blocks attract a different sort of client.
They are also newly populated, not a place with a history
of residents.
They are isolated from the surrounding environment.
They are built for access, security and surveillance, not
living comfort.
Security can be conducted remotely. So it is not for the
security of an apartment block.
Staff
So, say you had to staff your enterprise/security. The pay for
a security officer is below the national average. This
is assuming a traceable, evidence creating book.
In the modern day, we probably have payments mostly going
through anonymous companies. Companies
House have officially raised their fees in
order to clean up their register this
year (2025).
Security and access
If you were able to takeover or manipulate a security firm,
what establishments would you be able to have access to?
- Residences of wealthy people?
- Care Homes?
- Hospitals?
- Schools?
Techniques cont'd
Diversion - Greek statues and Henry VIII
- Just like greek statues, the heads/arms are missing,
have been stolen, or transplanted on to other statues
or messages.
Staff 2
How to get your staff.
Assume that nobody wants to work for you.
So, target those with
no income,
no passport after years in the UK
benefits
disability
jobseekers
low income jobs with a little cash bonus from time to time
- for catching criminals.
- if you don't we will do take away your things
- if you don't your children will do badly
- if you don't we will hurt your community
- if you don't we will have people scare away your customers
- we will send letters from various companies
- we will send people to shout or talk loudly in the middle
of the night
- we will send vehicles to prevent you sleeping
- we will take away your accommodation
- we will take away your benefits
- we will send vehicles to kill the insects in your garden
Send messages via anonymous agents. Or letters using official
letterheads. Or messages that have the right person at the
beginning then another message inserted afterwards.
Infiltrate official organisations if you can.
Recruit/bribe/coerce from
- the DWP.
- the social services.
- the ambulance services.
- the police services.
- people that can access phone cabinets.
- estate agents
- mechanics
The number of people you need to control other
people is not large.
5-10 people per neighbourhood is plenty, because they can
travel between neighbourhoods.
+ remote working,
+apps
and you can make the whole thing quite efficient.
The Cure
I think the people involved probably don't want to be
involved. But they can't act alone.
Disclaimer:
If you are suffering from metal health,
take care.
We use "thought experiments" to explore these
ideas, because they sound "absolutely crazy".
So do not talk or speak about these with
someone who is assessing or monitoring your
health, just in case, for their
sake, and yours.